17-Jan-2012, 6:44 PM
1. Not being willing to talk about anything with anyone. I'm outgoing when I have motivation and time to invest in it, but otherwise I'm just lazy when it comes to meeting people.
2. Not investing enough effort. I'm way too much of a one-and-done, quick-fix person, simply because I realize this life is short, it's temporary and there are things I'm supposed to be accomplishing during it, and want results in my time and not the perfect time, the Kairos Time (which is now an everyday phrase for me). I'm learning this lesson the hard way.
3. Too much time on this computer! Much of the discussion with people and outreach I'm involved in right now is over the Internet, many of my important projects are located on the computer, and all the CC LPs are on YouTube. When personal change and rebirth hit me hard, I suddenly lost much of my desire to watch some LPs and even to play CC; I'm now playing BigOto Returns for fun, but that's the only time I've picked up Chip's Challenge since then. (I reference those events frequently nowadays; they were around Halloween 2011.)
4. I'm still young at heart in the wrong ways. I say things I don't need to say and act out in the wrong places, not befitting my social status, despite believing and being told that I'm quite mature, even far beyond my years, about serious topics such as materialism, health, moral values, the importance of real meaning in life, and death and dying. I describe this dilemma as myself, at 21, stuck between a 12-year-old self and a 30-year-old self in a Buridan's ass paradox.
2. Not investing enough effort. I'm way too much of a one-and-done, quick-fix person, simply because I realize this life is short, it's temporary and there are things I'm supposed to be accomplishing during it, and want results in my time and not the perfect time, the Kairos Time (which is now an everyday phrase for me). I'm learning this lesson the hard way.
3. Too much time on this computer! Much of the discussion with people and outreach I'm involved in right now is over the Internet, many of my important projects are located on the computer, and all the CC LPs are on YouTube. When personal change and rebirth hit me hard, I suddenly lost much of my desire to watch some LPs and even to play CC; I'm now playing BigOto Returns for fun, but that's the only time I've picked up Chip's Challenge since then. (I reference those events frequently nowadays; they were around Halloween 2011.)
4. I'm still young at heart in the wrong ways. I say things I don't need to say and act out in the wrong places, not befitting my social status, despite believing and being told that I'm quite mature, even far beyond my years, about serious topics such as materialism, health, moral values, the importance of real meaning in life, and death and dying. I describe this dilemma as myself, at 21, stuck between a 12-year-old self and a 30-year-old self in a Buridan's ass paradox.